The Truth I’d Rather Not Admit: PPD and me

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It was raining harder than I anticipated it would, as I walked an hour to my psychiatrist appointment. I had an umbrella that barely did any good, but I didn’t care. It was a welcomed break. An hour to myself, without any cooing or crying, diapering or playing. Good or bad, I wanted nothing to […]

I didn’t cherish every moment … and that’s okay.

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Her body is still little enough that she can snuggle into me when we cuddle after reading books. But just barely. Her little hand still tucks into mine when crossing the street, but she pulls away as soon as she senses it’s safe. Today I discovered I can no longer hold her around my hip […]

It’s been five years of battling depression. And I’m really, really Tired.

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A few weeks after Grace was born in 2008, I was diagnosed with postpartum depression. And now, five years later, I’m still dealing with its effects. Five years. I no longer have a baby, but I’m still dealing with the aftermath of an illness that I thought I would have kicked to the curb by […]

Having a Second Kid – After the First Was NOT Easy

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by Honest Mom contributor, Jeannette, blogger at Mommy Needs a Martini Never in 400 million years did I ever think I’d have one kid, let alone two. I was raised a military brat with very little extended family around, so small is all I knew. When my niece and nephew were born I thought, for […]

To all the moms dealing with PPD and depression this Mother’s Day

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Many of you Honest Mom readers struggle or have struggled with PPD, depression, anxiety, or other mental illnesses. Maybe some of your Mother’s Days in the past have been less than ideal because of it. Or maybe this year it’s going to be a really hard day for you. As I’ve said many times here […]

Controversy reigns, but hope remains.

Controversy reigns, but hope remains

Once again, the conversation about moms and meds is stirring up controversy. And once again, I’m thinking many people are simply missing the point. The reason I went on Katie Couric’s show this week to talk about moms, meds, and depression was the same reason why I write about it: to help lift the stigma […]

I’m on Katie Couric’s show on Tuesday 3/5/13. And yes, I’m freaking out a little.

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One day I was just hanging out, writing blog posts about moms and depression, hoping I was helping some other moms with my words. Then “Xanax Made Me a Better Mom” – a Parenting Magazine article I am in – got picked up by CNN. And all of a sudden, a whole lot more people […]

The scariest symptom of depression that no one talks about

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It was the rage that frightened me. I had expected to feel down, sad, and grumpy. Which I did, that’s for sure. But rage? That was not something I expected from postpartum depression. And the rage is what drove me to get help. About five weeks after my second daughter, Grace, was born, my husband […]